When I opened my eyes this morning, the first sentence I heard was "In the future Don't talk about cars anymore, xxx is asking for the car, u're asking for the car, just let my cousin go on hoilday in peace" . Period. from my aunt. My day, the day I so looked forward to, destroyed..
Just yesterday morning, I asked my cousin's permission to drive the car. It was 6 months since I last asked. Back then the reason I can't was because the car's brakes were spoilt. After being rejected once, I never had the courage to asked again. It took me damn loads of courage to ask yesterday. I got it. At night we even had a trial run of the route I'll be taking today. Everything went smoothly and I got the green light to drive.
So after I heard all those things my aunt said early in the morning I struggle to hold on to that permission to drive. It seems like no one on this planet Earth can actually believe that I can do something. They are all treating me like a kid hoping to trap me in the cot forever. None of them know what I have achieved for the past 20 years. I bet they do not know how many trophies I won, how many certificates I have. I bet they think that I got it easy for my licence, I bet they don't believe I can drive a boat. WHAT IS THE POINT OF ME GETTING ALL THESE LICENCE!!!!!!! when I am forever treated like a 2 year old.
Anyway, I just gave the excuse to my cousin that I am lazy to come back home from work to get the car so I am not driving anymore. To them , they would probabbly think it is because I have no confidence. Hah if I am so HUM I wouldn't even have asked! whatEVER.! Doesn't matter anymore. I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT CARS ANYMORE! All the talk about getting car for me , or letting me practice when they have the time. YA I AM NOT EVEN LOOOKING FORWARD TO IT ANYMORE!. ALL those " hope" they gave last time. I SHOULDn'T have took it to heart and now I am not going to.
NO HOPE = NO DISAPPOINTMENT..
This is what I learn today.................................................
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