Carlsbluey: "When those warm drops of tears fall, I realized that there is still life in me"
I was begging ....
That I will never leave this place one day.
Never leave God one day.
Never to let me heart continue to harden somemore.
Emotions flood in when all those memories plays before me.
How I first got to know the family, the love and the warmth.
Those series of events that happened that till this day I am still trying or rather curious to find out what...
and how I never get the excuse to go back again.
The blank years that left me craving for that " thing " again... that feeling...
How I get to come back again.
I felt as if something melted inside of me. Then burden comes in. Being the last to join in how am I going to bring back those who first went in.
The people who paid the price , who laid the foundation so that I can be in the House of God. No longer there.
I was hoping so much that they could be the one standing in front being prayed for. Yet, there were only a few pieces of familiar faces down there.
Fear starts setting in...
In my growing up years
I've seen so many examples of people burning out. People being disappointed. People who had a change of heart and piority.
They were so on fire. Laying down their lives for the church but yet at the threshold of a new era they have left....
I was so afraid that I would one day be like that.
I really like this feeling. Feeling of being engulfed by the Holy Spirit. Its so warm , so comfortable and so full of life....
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