How would I leave 4 days later?
What would happen 26 days later?
Not being emo here but I really wanna know how I should face the things that are happening around. Whats the purpose?
First is hearing from my cousin that my eldest sis is going to remove a lump suspected to be cancer. Cancer has always been a killer in my family I am really afraid that the lump is cancerous. At the same time the nerves on her eyes got infection and she is seeing flashes. And all these thing about keeping it a secret from my mum makes it so dramatic. I admit I am not close to my sister and that I don't really bother about her but.... I am still uncomfortable at the fact that her life might be in danger.
Second my aunt suddenly had fever raging at 39 today but thank God its slowing decreasing.
I am trying hard to surpress that fear. Trying very hard not to dwell too much on thoughts of death and people leaving me. Worrying what will happen after I come back. Don't know if I should tell my mum about my surgery I am going to take after I come back from Aust. I'm sure she is going to be overly worried even though its really nothing. Haixxxx.
No matter what. I can't fall . No matter what I must be strong.
Yes... I must stay strong....
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